Color

I love color.  Lots of color.  The fact is, it is extremely difficult for me to buy things that, to me, do not have color.  That means beige, white, and black.  A Japanese kimono full of vibrant colors is far more interesting than the serenity of monochrome; Hawaiian shirts hold endless attraction.  Prints intrigue me far more than a brilliant, single color.

Child's Kimono

Because color is so attractive, the absence of color in a painting – such as in sumi-e – and in photography – become endlessly fascinating in the variations of black-grey-white.  Color reduction, meaning decolorization, can be done in various photo editing software programs.  This pushes the photograph to near monochrome, but with an essence of color.  The same may be done in an ink painting.  Both become intriguing as the color draws the eye, but because of the lack of color elsewhere, it also becomes a messenger, speaking to the viewer on a symbolic level.  Or, it can simply become an attractive element essential to a composition.

Electric Snowflakes

In sumi-e, there is a challenge in gradation and contrast.  This is managed by both how the brush is loaded as well as forethought and knowledge as to how dark something will dry – or, more challenging – how light.  Understanding the paper being used, the qualities of the ink stick, the subtleties of the brush become an art in themselves, all of which lead to the success or failure of the final painting.

Wheat in Sumi

In photography I am finding much the same challenge.  In playing with software, such as Corel Paintshop Photo Pro X3 and Photoscape, I can take a colored photograph and either decolor it, separate it into multiple pre-press layers, or simply change it to a grey-scale image.  Red flowers which look awful in color can become quite fascinating when rendered into black and white.

Red Rhododendrons - BW Rhododendrons

Composition also plays into photography, as much as it does in painting.  Because one is physically doing a painting, I think that the elements of composition have time to unfold, and the unconscious works toward the final result long before the concept is visible to the artist.  It is a slower process altogether.

The very nature of photography lends itself – especially with digital – to taking picture after picture after picture.  Only now am I considering more carefully my compositions.  Knowing I can crop and edit in software, as well as the fact I don’t have to pay for printing, lets me shoot all over, all and everything.  This lets me play.  Play is creative, fun, and educational.  Happenstance leads to analysis in looking at photographs, which leads to thought about all the elements which come together, as they do in painting, to create the final image:  light, subject, color, direction, contrast.  As a result, I am developing the skills which permit me to think ahead a bit; these are the same skills, conscious or not, which I apply to a painting.

Fallen

I am finding that my preferences in photography echo those I have for paintings.  Simplicity and contrast.  Less is more.  Whether or not I succeed is up for question.

Thoughts for the Season, i

Peace my heart…

Peace, my heart, let the time for the parting be sweet.

Let it not be a death but completeness.

Let love melt into memory and pain into songs.

Let the flight through the sky end in the folding of the wings over the nest.

Let the last touch of your hands be gentle like the flower of the night.

Stand still, O Beautiful End, for a moment, and say your last words in silence.

I bow to you and hold up my lamp to light you on your way.

—Rabindranath Tagore

Hibernation

Throughout my entire life, I go through periods of dormancy.  It is hard to make a decision, duties and responsibilities are onerous, and the creative side is stagnant.  And then the morning arrives when I am ready to pick up and do and go – the world is new and exciting and intense.  Today is such a day, and it is grey and gloomy with the threat of rain.  Usually hot chocolate, a fire, a good book, some knitting come to mind, but instead, my mind is revving up.

The last few weeks seem to have been a sea of angry, needy, demanding people who only want me to meet their requests.  Never mind how their wants affect everyone else in the group, or me, or how their presentations negate any desire I may have to help them in the first place.  Nor, it seems, do they ever stop to think that if they constantly demand and require that reciprocity may be something to consider!  This kind of environment probably makes the best of us shut down, and that is exactly what I have done.  Honestly, all this emotion has been overwhelming.

So what has brought about this change?  I finally blew up yesterday at one individual who has demanded so much, and yet cannot get it that my requests, petty as they may seem, are equally valid.  Yeah, that individual got mouthy, but the support from the rest of the people who witnessed it – and who have had to deal with this jerk – was great.  I felt badly all day because I don’t like losing it, but sometimes you just have to let someone have it.  I did, and now I am done, the line has been crossed.  I’ve put up with the crap and shut down as a result.

In addition to this, I have found that, while I am enjoying photography and see where it can lead me, changing how I look and see things, I really need to have something in my hands through which I can put my manual energies – knitting needles, a paint brush.  I really miss it when I don’t do it – I don’t feel like me anymore.

I expect I should make a concerted effort to remember this, and always have something at hand to work on, and making sure I do just that.  Completing something with my hands gives me a very strong sense of satisfaction, and keeps me from going nuts.  And if I look at my career counseling background, to not do this is anathema to my personality!  I am an AIR combo of the RIASEC codes – artistic, investigative, realistic.  Create, figure out, do it in the physical world.

So, this morning, up at 5 a.m.; coffee, essay, questions and answers for a test, update computer, download software, finish off a hat and mail it away, begin design for a new one, continue the shawl and mitts, think about and consider the photography class assignments.

Hibernation is over.