Daffodils

Every now and then, a day becomes more than a day.  I went out to the local botanical garden to do some sketching, and came across a small mass of daffodils all in bloom under the olive tree.  After all our rains, the world is bright with new growth and color – butterflies in multitudes, fresh breezes, the scent of flowers – everything is as if the world was just created.  How easy it is to forget nature’s beauty in our crazy world . . . 

I Wandered Lonely as a Cloud

     –by William Wordsworth

I wandered lonely as a cloud
That floats on high o’er vales and hills,
When all at once I saw a crowd,
A host, of golden daffodils;
Beside the lake, beneath the trees,
Fluttering and dancing in the breeze.
Continuous as the stars that shine
And twinkle on the milky way,
They stretched in never-ending line
Along the margin of a bay:
Ten thousand saw I at a glance,
Tossing their heads in sprightly dance.
The waves beside them danced; but they
Out-did the sparkling waves in glee:
A poet could not but be gay,
In such a jocund company:
I gazed—and gazed—but little thought
What wealth the show to me had brought:
For oft, when on my couch I lie
In vacant or in pensive mood,
They flash upon that inward eye
Which is the bliss of solitude;
And then my heart with pleasure fills,
And dances with the daffodils.

New Challenges

One thing I find interesting is my need to “drop bombs” on my daily life.  What this means is simply that getting into a rut is not a good thing, and shaking up the patterns and routines are necessary to keep life interesting.  For example, I have settled into this pattern:  coffee, breakfast, clean up myself and the house, figure out evening meals, and then paint and draw.  Much as I like the last, I find myself getting stuck in a rut.  The other things I like doing don’t get done.  And, I get really bored; worse, I feel like I am not “accomplishing” anything!  That’s the problem with having a lot of interests and an impatient, restless personality.  I irritate myself as well as others.

The other day, I finally got around to buying a new laptop computer.  My old ones were worthless except as boat anchors.  Poor graphics and connectivity.  Slow.  I have one, a Windows XP machine dedicated to my film scanner.  Another was not forward compatible with Windows – can you believe that???  Anyway, as a result, I had to clean up the bloat ware on the new laptop and install software I use.  With everything internet-based, it’s interesting to now own a laptop with only a few external connections and no DVD drive.  The result was I finally broke down and decided to enroll in Lightroom CC for photography.

I really like LR as a jump-off point for other software to edit photographs.  The catalog system is great.  However, the Creative Cloud version has some things I need to learn!  I have never been a cloud-based person, preferring to keep stuff on my own hardware rather than rely on others to take care of me.  As times change, though, so must we, even if I am not sure this is always for the best.  What I know I will like is being able to access my photos from either my laptop or my home computer without having to use sneaker net anymore.  That is also what I like about Google and being able to sync across computers.

The challenge here is making sure I do what I like.  It’s actually very hard to find time to do all the things I want to do.  Poor weather has kept me in the house a lot – who wants to go out in pouring rain? – but that is like house arrest after a bit.  The LR is going to be a challenge, and fun.  The bigger challenge is to find the time to do so many other things!

I have made one promise to myself, though:  I will draw or paint every day, no matter what else is on the agenda.

 

A Few Paintings

No joking when I said my “new job” was watercolor painting and drawing!  I’ve been getting daily life stuff done, but somewhen in between, I manage an hour or two a day with paper, pen, and paint.  It’s paying off (that’s what jobs are supposed to do, right?) I think.  Still a lot of goofs, but some progress, too.  Mud is now something I decide to paint more often than not.  Below is a gallery of the work I’ve done in the past few weeks – not all of it, just some of it.  Click on one picture to begin scrolling through them.

I have been using two different types of paper for the watercolors. One that is inexpensive, 100% cotton is Bee Paper, in 6×9 inch format. The other is Fabriano, in block format. 11×15 inch Artistico; this is a higher quality 100% cotton that is still affordable. Both papers are really good for heavier washes. The Artistico has more tooth than the Bee paper, but the smoother surface of the Bee really lends itself well to ink-and-watercolor drawings.

So many plans with impending retirement, and I am finding I certainly will not be able to do everything I want to do – just not enough time! I used to give myself 30 minutes to paint – now I can give myself whatever time I want. Thus, first loves take over other loves, but the sewing and the photography and knitting and, and, and will get in there. Time will be dedicated!

So, on this rainy Saturday morning, the studio will get cleaned up again, and the fun continue.

A New Job

With the official retirement date of April Fool’s Day, I have been rethinking a lot of what I do and want to do.  Being retired is really like taking on a new job.  You have to figure out what is important, what is not important, and instead of someone directing your daily traffic, you are the one who has to make the decisions.  Of course, the daily chores of living set up a schedule in a way, but what if you just decide not to pay attention to them?  I think – I know – my life would totally fall apart!  I like my dishes and laundry done, bills paid, and a clean and ordered living environment – especially my studio – but I also want to have the room to be messy and creative.  That is really my new job:  what to do with my free time.

And what do I want to do?  I am finding my priority is painting and drawing.  These are my longest and deepest loves, ever since I can remember.  Philosophical battles wasted a lot of my time; rather than just doing things, I thought about their values.  These values were really external ones – who will value what I do?  In the end, it really doesn’t matter because I am not painting or drawing for an audience other than me.  That said, I also want to schedule – yes, schedule! – time for reading, writing, photography, socializing, sewing, spinning, knitting, baking, gardening, some travel.  Everyone says my time will be really easy to fill.  I had my doubts, but no more.

Having a return-to-work date from medical leave prior to the retirement decision kept these thoughts at bay.  Now, the world is wide open.  Enjoying retirement is my new job, one to cherish.  It’s like being a kid again, really!  The summer – however long it is now – without school – lies ahead.

Seals in Disguise

Yesterday’s post had some lies in it.  I thought there were not a lot of seals on the beach.  It turns out there are literally tons of them, strewn along the sand and on the rocks themselves, disguising themselves as rocks.  Check out the picture below.  Click on it once, it will fit on your screen.  Click on it again and then you can see those sneaky little critters!  Sheelah sure has sharp eyes!